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Last Day for 2016

This is my last post for the year 2016... or maybe EVER here in LJ considering that I don't post that much anymore. I only super rarely visited the site this year. Idk. Well, we'll see.

Anyway, this will be like one of those "looking back before the year officially ends" kind of thing. We all know how shitty this year turned out for a lot of people around the world: all the terrorist attacks in Europe, another destructive earthquake hit Japan, all the vigilante killings in the Philippines, Trump being President of the US, and all the hate existing in every part of the world. There are probably a lot of awful stuff I missed here but let's not focus on that.

This post will be about looking at the brighter side of 2016 and being utterly grateful for it. I would like to promote positivity in the coming year (which is odd because I'm a cynic) and so, I'm starting with myself. I'm doing this not for everyone, but mostly for me, because yeah, I'm selfish (go figure). I have been through tough times this past year, to the point that I may have gotten borderline deppressed and I don't want to go back to that place anymore, not when there are real people with real-ass problems around the world. It's as if I don't have the right to feel that way when I think about that. And believe it or not, it actually makes me feel a whole lot grateful to have what I have, to be who I am and be much more appreciative of everything.

Ultimately, I'm doing this to remind myself of all the realizations and epiphany that I acquired if those dark times come at me once again, and hopefully, to help those who are currently going through such conflicts (and by confilcts, I mean FWPs or First World Problems. If you're able to read this, then chances are you're probably lucky enough to experience them) and get over those trivial things. The lists are in no particular order. I'm just typing them as I remember them. Well, here it goes...


-The world is already filled with hatred and negativity. DON'T ADD TO THE COUNT.

(This is a no-brainer, really. A lot of people are saying this already and I agree with them. Go work on making yourself more optimistic yet less delusional. But I wouldn't advice cutting-off ties with those who are pessimist/cynical/negative. Like I said, this world is already full of hatred and negativity, so why not spread the love and positivity? Don't just abandon them! Instead, inspire them to see the world in a different light. And if you feel their negativity is rubbing on you, that's when you distance yourself and then try again after you recharge.)

-BE GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING. It's not everyday that everyone gets to meet their basic necessities.
(Be glad for the simple fact of being alive and experiencing everything that is good in this world. Don't let minor setbacks get in your way of appreciating life as a whole. There are people in their deathbeds who would give up everything just for another chance at life.)

-As depressing as this may sound, HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE.
(We all have free will, so use it! You're the only one who can hold you back, not your family or your friends or society as a whole. With that said, know your limits and stick within the boundaries of your own morality and principles. Choose to be happy without stepping on anyone's shoes.)

-Try and try until you fail countless times and engrave every lesson in every cells and tissues in your body. In short, BE HUMBLE AND EXPECT TO FAIL AT EVERY TURN.
(Failure is like the pre-requisite of the subject that is Success. It's what makes us humble and preps us to be worthy of success.)

(The greatest disappointments stem from having the biggest expectations and not meeting them. Try to lower it a bit and see how it goes. In my case, disappointments came less and less and achievements felt more gratifying. But the thing is the less you expect, the more likely it is for you to lose faith in the purpose of what you're doing. Don't give up on it just yet and keep believing in your goals and dreams. If your purpose fails you, then find another one, one that's true-er than the last.)

(Another no-brainer. Don't aspire for something you can't afford or reach... just yet. These larger goals take time. Be patient and take it one step at a time. If you want to buy a Starbucks coffee but can't afford one, then save your money until you can buy one. Don't go on whining about how life is so unfair just because of a freakin' Starbucks. I'm getting off-topic here. But the point is it's not completely shameful to want something more. Everyone does. The key is to accept and appreciate what you already have and make the most out of it. These will be your tools towards obtaining your goals.)

-Bring yourself to understand more and try to PUT YOURSELF INTO OTHER PEOPLE'S SHOES.
(I did say don't step on them but instead, put them on. This is the best way to understand others and lessen judgment on them as much as possible. This is also a good way to finally stop mistreatment among people in general.)

(This goes without saying but nothing will change if you don't act on it. Try to keep an open mind and listen to what others have to say. It will always be your choice but an advice or two wouldn't hurt, right?)

-I may have emphasized that you have a choice on everything, but remember that NOT EVERYTHING CAN BE CONTROLLED. BE WISE ENOUGH TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.
(It's common sense, really. Don't try to control something uncontrollable. Unless you're a mutant or have superpowers, you cannot control the weather. Have a sense of what you can and cannot manipulate.)

(There are major screw-ups and minor serbacks in life. Have a sense to know the difference. And please, don't go all out Super Saiyan Blue on a little mistake. Everybody has them.)

(And don't be afraid to show it, even if in the end, you weren't able to conquer some of the mountains. Hey! There are plenty of terrains to challenge in life so don't get stuck up on one failure.*getting off-topic again*)

(...or something like that. I don't believe in perfection anymore. It's too much pressure and builds up a lot of anxiety.)

(Both with yourself and with others. It's the first step for self-acceptance.)

-RANT MORE. It's good for you.
(But don't stop there. Accompany it with action! Change things for the better!)

-And lastly, "There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to know it really is a mistake is to make that mistake and go, 'Yep. That was a mistake'. So really the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go about your whole life not knowing whether it's a mistake or not."
(Did you get all that? It really does makes a lot of sense to me. In other words, TAKE WHAT LIFE HANDS OVER TO YOU AND LIVE A LESS REGRETFUL LIFE. You only live once so grab every opportunity you have like it's your last, whether or not it's a mistake. May it be about your family, career, or whatever! Remember, there's no turning back time, it can only move forward. So embrace the past, live in the present, and look forward to the future!)

There are a lot of things I still haven't typed here but my character count is limited (and because I'm afraid I'll veer off topic again. Lol). I'll list the things I'm grateful for on another post because it's way more personal. Hope this will help someone in some way.

Anyway, thanks for bearing with me and have a wonderful 2017!

Braces Makes a Comeback

Can't believe I just had my braces for the second time. I guess the first time didn't go so well. Once I had those removed, my teeth started to go back to it's original state. Ugh! Another year of painstaking brushing and maintaining. And guess what? My dentist even told me that I have to wear these suckers for more than 2 years! Vanity is such a pain. Though I didn't decide to put braces again just for that. Aside from my mom nagging me to do it, its mainly because of jaw as well. My bite needed to be corrected as per doctor's advice. Anyway, it's here and it's here to stay. So I guess I'll just have to deal with this like before.

On another note, I still haven't decided on my checklist for January. Lol! Yeah I know, sue my lazy ass. But before you do that, I just want you to know that while I was on that dental chair, I already decided on my ideal list for the whole year and I'm going to write it now (after this). XP

So, see you in a bit~


Internet Connection Status: FIXED!

...and some other stuff. But let's go to the title first. :)

During these past weeks (a month and a week actually), our internet connection has been shitty. One moment, it's connected, then later, its gone, like a light bulb that's about to go dead. Going on and off and on and off and so on. And sometimes, when it does acquire a stable connection, it's so darn slow. I thought it was because of the holidays since many people are spending their time in their homes, but as it turns out, our internet provider wasn't actually giving their promised speed to us. I just learned about this yesterday when the tech guy from the company (Globe) went to our house to fix the problem. The reason why we couldn't connect most of the time is because the wire got exposed. The insulator broke and he fixed it with an electric tape. When he went to check on the speed, we found out that it was only below 2 mbps when it's supposed to be 5. In my head, I was like WTF!? But I didnt really show it to the tech guy. I asked him to do something about it (note that I asked nicely) and he went and called the company to have it reset. After a few minutes, the speed test showed that we're getting an almost 5 mbps internet speed. It's better than less than 2 so I let him go. I told him thanks and he told me to just call the company and have it reset if ever the speed drops that low again. I just wish that my personal laptop would be fixed by the service center already so I can maximize this internet speed. So that's that.

On to other stuff, I decided that since it's already 2016 and I'm going to be another year older this March, I should probably change my lifestyle and instill some discpline in this thick skull and lazy ass of mine in order to reach my goals. Well, like Sho said, "Write it as a dream, read it as a goal." and so I'm going to start with that.

For the past years, I've been setting up countless goals and making plans that are not feasible given the current state that I'm in. This quickly led to me having a Quarter Life Crisis (yes, that's a thing) which in turn led to my worsening anxiety problems and almost falling to depression just last year. Now, I'll try to make it as feasible as I possibly can and start with the small things.

Indeed, 2015 has been full of ups and downs and I'd like to think that most of those downs had made me into a better and stronger person. I look forward to what awaits for me in the future.

2016, please be kind to me. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu. m(_ _)m

*I'll pin my checklist for this month and for the whole year so I won't get lost.


[Game Review] Tomb Raider (2013)

I've been planning to post this review of mine for some time now since finishing it on PS3. I know, I know, there are a lot of reviews on this game out there but I just want to share my take on this version of Tomb Raider, especially now that they released the second installment of the game in Xbox and soon, in PS4. For those who doesn't know, it's entitled Rise of the Tomb Raider. I'll put the trailer at the very end of this post for those who are interested. :)

Now, onto my review. XD
Note: This is actually just a mini review and is my first time doing something like this so I'll only keep it as short as I possibly can and I'll try to avoid major spoilers here. Also, I played the PS3 version of Tomb Raider in Hard mode.

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On a personal note, I decided to try and do some reviews of the games that I've played over the years since I decided to be active here in LJ again. Also, I wanted to revamp my layout but my knowledge of HTML and CSS is still lacking and rusty, so if anyone know someone or somewhere that I can go in order to give my journal a fresh layout, please do share it with me. Thanks! :)

Lastly, tell me what you think of my review and the game in general in the comments below. :D

That's it!
MJ deshita~ (^-^)v

Arrow Meets Supernatural (Par 1/?)

Or as I would like to call it, "The fanfiction that's been lost for centuries and never saw the light of day." LOL!

I actually just stumbled upon this while sifting through my horribly messy files and thought "Hey! Now might be a good time to post this because I so don't want this harboring virtual cobwebs (since I wrote this a year ago) in my HD." And so here it is! VIOLA! not that It's awesome but yeah~ (you get the point XP).

Summary: Olliver is gone but Starling City still needs saving. Having their hands full with the Starling City Slayer, finding Olliver (or what remains of him), and keeping Malcom Merlin in check, Team Arrow encounters a whole new kind of supernatural trouble along with the two newcomers in town. Are they the cause of all the mystical events happening in Starling City or are they the key to saving the diseased town from dying?

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I'm not planning on continuing this fic since the season 3 of Arrow is already over (like months ago). But for all its worth, please do leave some feedback. Tell me what you think about this or if it seems interesting or just you know, leave some constructive criticisms and tips for me. It will be very much appreciated. :)

Reminder to myself

"With the days that just pass before your eyes
Change them and head to the future you dreamed of.
If you could take a single step, the scenery will change.
Happiness is surely in my hands."

"The present days are still full of regrets.
Overcome them as clumsily as you are.
That's right, tomorrow, the wind will blow differently from today, won't it.
Everything is definitely in my hands"

You'll never know what will happen in your life. You'll never know what obstacle you might face. But surely, the days will not stay the same. As long as you'll keep on walking... As long as you keep trying to change... The World will be reborn everyday.
Probably, with just one change of your feelings.

These are the words that keep on reminding me, in times of frustrations and in the face of so many failures, something good will be waiting for me just around the corner. Past the hardships and defeat, the strong winds and raging storms, there will always be a rainbow at the end of my every journey. I just have to keep on going, keep on changing, keep on believing, never giving up, never giving in, staying strong and having fun in every step of the way. No matter how many detours I have to take, no matter how dark the road may be, I will never stop. By shaping my future with my own hands, making my own path, I will definitely arrive at that place.

Shiawase wo...kitto...boku no te no naka ni!

Appreciation post and HAPPY NINO MONTH!!!!

can we all just take a moment and appreciate this gif?

I would do the same thing if i was the baby. XD I've been staring at this for half an hour tbh. I need a life. lol.
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disclaimer: got the gifs from tumblr (i honestly can't remember where i got them. probably from tsuribaka and/or ohnoonho. XP). i'm sorry.
m(_ _)m


Just putting this out there for anyone interested.
Raw, translations, timming, and etc etc are all provided by me. :)
Sorry in advance for the mistakes I've made in the translation.

Happy Nino Day!!!! \(^o^)/

A sweet treat for this special day for the special person I have so admired for the past 2 years.


translated and subbed by me mjaytona :)

How I Met Your Mother: "Last Forever"

The episode that concluded Ted's search for the mother in HIMYM has finally come to an end. I just watched the finale and it was only an okay for me. Somehow, I got the feeling that they were going to do that from the moment it was rumored that the mother was already dead. I mean, it's okay to kill off the mother, but to have Ted end up with Robin (again) after the mother died (6 years ago) is plain stupidity. They should know (as writers) where their story is heading to from the way it was developed, even though everything wasn't exactly as planned. They should feel what the audience feels and that to them, the perfect ending to this 9-year fairytale (Yes. FAIRYTALE. It wasn't supposed to be one but it developed like that anyway) is also a semi-disney-feel, and-they-lived-happily-ever-after ending. As the title of the finale "Last Forever" suggests, their love should last forever even after Tracy McConnell died. And not "6 years have past. go off and hook up with Robin again"--ever after. They're good writers, nonetheless (for having thought of circling to where it all began for Ted and Robin). It's just that... the dream died right there when the daughter said "It's been 6 years since mom died. Call Aunt Robin and date her!" Right there, when Ted picked up the phone and chickened out (although as it turned out, Ted just had a great idea that's why he didn't make the call), I seriously hoped he would say "You know what? Maybe you're right. Maybe it's time I moved on. It's just that... you're mom is the only one for me and I for her. No matter what happens, that certain fact will never change. Not then, not ever. Even if... Even if you say it's been years that she's gone and that your Aunt Robin, the girl that I've chased during my late 20s and early 30s, happens to still be single, it wouldn't matter. It wouldn't make me go all the way to New York City, steal the blue french horn for her for the third or maybe fourth time, and stand in front of her apartment building until she sees me from her window, waiting... waiting all these years to be in this moment again, to be back to square one. Just... waiting. Waiting for her to be ready. Because all this time, all these years of waiting, I realized, I was really waiting for your mom. Your mom is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Your mother is and will always be... the one." -----aaaand CUT! Series finale finished. Most legendary episode for the most legendary series ever... DONE!

It's not that I'm against Ted and Robin being together. I personally root for them because I just loved how well established their characters are and how their relationship and feelings (especially Ted) went on (and off) for 9 seasons. It's just that, the way that they ended up together wasn't satisfying at all. Even for me, who secretly almost always ships them because of their chemistry. From the minute that Ted let go of Robin from an episode in season 9 (when super-drunk Barney ran off and Ted was in the beach with Robin and Robin flew away, signaling that Ted already moved on) they should have also let go of twisting the story and trying to pass it up as a Ted-and-Robin-ever-after. That was the last straw. That was the point of no return. And even after that, when Ted wanted Barney to give the significant locket to Robin, they should have never thought of the two as a potential couple again. Because then, they made the mother look like 'just another girl that Ted dated.' It just doesn't feel right. It's like a betrayal from the very title that the series was going for. It's just..... disappointing.